Meditation and a sense of wholeness
And that sort of 'just being' feels whole.
The part I didn't expect is how that sense of wholeness follows me around even during the times I'm not meditating. I'm not sure I ever realized before how many things I did in awkward attempts to complete parts of myself I thought were missing.
Things I purchased.
Tasks I did.
Interactions with people who impressed me.
Ways I felt like I was lacking.
The odd thing is that when you have a sense of being whole, those weird drivers sort of dissipate. And what is left is the motivation of enjoyment.
This is a new journey for me. One that is still unfolding.