The Soul Care Epiphany....Part 2

Mindy of Soulcare talked about her journey beginning by tackling a closet at the top of the stairs. She detailed it's contents. An unfinished crossstitch. A basket of baby clothes that needed ironing. (At this point her children were in school.) Boxes of photos to be scrapbooked.

As I listened to her list the contents it was pretty easy to see that each thing was representative of things an amazing wife and mom "should" do.

Then once again, Mindy made a statement that was profound. This time quoting someone else though I lost the reference... "Clutter is a symptom of fear. Fear of being able to meet the needs of the future or fear of dealing with regrets of the past."

Whoa.

Again. Clutter is a symptom of fear. Fear of being able to meet the needs of the future or fear of dealing with regrets of the past.

My closet has different stuff in it. (Not the physical one. The mental one.) Goals I haven't achieved. Times when I let things go to be "nice" that I was really angry about. Times I let myself be bullied. Things I feel I should be good at that I'm not. Forgetting to buy teacher gifts. Childhood occasions I didn't take pictures of. (Didn't realize until this moment that is why I am so obsessed now.)

The list is actually much longer than that and most of it has specific instances attached to it that still make me cringe.

Apparently, I have some closet cleaning to do too.